On April 24th 2012, I lost my dad I had never meet Greg till I was 18yrs old but that didn't matter I always longed to meet him and I had so many questions for him. I went to Porterville, Ca. at 18 years old to get my questions answered, I lived there for the next year and a half I got to know this man and he was honest in telling me he was to blame for many many things, He was very sorry and wanted to do everything he could to make it up. I was the 2nd oldest of his 4 children I have an older brother in Florida by a different mother and I have 2 brothers younger then I, from the same mom.
After about a year and a half I moved back home to Nebraska, In the years to come I talked over the phone with my dad and went to see him many times I got close to him. I listened to many story's, many sorry's, many what ifs. My dad was a smoker all his young life, he had lung caner and eventually was down to one half working lung, though many many surgeries he kept fighting to stay alive, every time family would call, I went, I stay by his side and would not leave not even to eat, until he was up and was able to go home. We had alot of conversations in those hospital rooms, I knew the day would come when he would no longer be able to fight. His 100 pound little body could just not take anymore.
I was not there with him the day my dad left this earth but I know he heard my voice on the phone while his wife held it to his ear...."Dad I love You & Its OK to rest now dad, I'm coming" Now that I play those words back in my head I know I gave him permission to go.
My dad died the next early morning. Its almost like he was waiting for me. I always went always but I didn't know how critical my dad was until my brother told me the night before I had made that call to his room for the very last time.
My two brothers and our mom drove the 24 hour drive to California. We laughed, smiled, cried together. I was very bitter for many years with my mom for things that happened to me when I was little, So I thought "This is gonna be a VERY LONG trip" but on our drive all I kept hearing was my dad saying like he always did "Have you talked to your mom yet? CorinaMarie, I'm not gonna always be here for you to call" over and over I heard him so loud and clear. On one of our stops we climbed this huge to us from Nebraska, It was a mountain  but this very huge rock and sitting up there I heard him again. "Corinamarie have you talked to your mom yet?" By the time we got there all the bitterness I felt just left I cant even explain it, Its like it was just gone! Every time I looked at my mom I just felt love for her. I was the last one standing at my dad casket and watching the man close it broke my heart in a million pieces, I heard my dad singing "you are my sunshine, My only sunshine you make me happy when sky's are grey ..........." He would always sing this in the hospital to let me know me he was OK, there were times when he couldn't speck so he had pencil and paper writing that song out. In the last 10years I got very close to my dad and felt like I knew him all my life. Like every grown women, I have that little girl inside who longs for her daddy. This trip, death, funeral, was more then losing my dad, It was eye opening. I wrote on a picture the other day that Ya know I did lose my dad BUT I gained an appreciation for my mom. I will treasure this trip, smiles, laughs & tears 4ever & never forget the very last time i got the privilege to stand in the presents of both my mom & dad. I miss you dad and I know that you made it, I know that you are no longer suffering. Rest now dad, I love you & Thank you for teaching me a life long lesson. See you when I get there dad.

Treasure

As a child you think YOUR mom will always be here. That You have nothing to fear. "THAT DAY" is far from near.

Then God calls her name and you now know YOUR life will NEVER be the same, For she is now free from all the pain. 

For you will always be my mom, my friend..... till the end. 

In my heart the end does not end here. No, In my heart you will always be near. 

Mom, Thank you for your unconditional love, support, & Lov'n me when I was so unlovable. 

All your work will not be in vain. I promise to let you live though me, Watch you'll see ....even tho my heart is  cry'n out "mom, please don't leave!"..... I don't wanna grieve! "Please don't leave" 

...I know you have to go. I pray for that day to see you again and say "Hello"

Mom, I am happy for you, you get to see your creator & I know he is a GREAT one because I and  Everyone that knew you...saw him.

Today, as the tears fall from my face, I know in my heart you are home safe in your resting place and with Gods grace.

You will never be forgotten mom, Not ever........ you now live among the angles forever.

And as for me ...I now know the meaning of TREASURE ...and you Mom, will always be my greatest treasure.
Inspired by the passing of a friends Great Mother Mary G. Strong Ramirez


 ~CMSG~ Please Note this Poem is Copyright Material 

 Copyright © 2011 COPYRIGHT Corina Marie Sisneroz-Guerrero. All rights reserved.

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A New Day

I cant change my childhood nor do I want to It has made me who I am today. You may have thought that you hurt me so bad that I would never become anyone, THEN you were right that's exactly how I felt, but TODAY I am someone. You have no control of who I am! Everything you have done to me, I can never change., But today like everyday is a new day. I will never forget but I can and do forgive and for today I choose to LIVE!

It's been awhile

So its been awhile, well i have been couponing and selling items online like no other! We got a new home last week and we are so excited to move =) I'm making a commitment to blog lots more =) I get away from writing I think because feelings are like in this brown box and I open it up just a lil and then I realize whats in there and I hurry and shut it and tape it back up throw it way in the back and leave it for a while again. I know I need to stop, because this is where my writings from from, .....My childhood.

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2012

Getting this new year off to a good start has not been easy. So we are starting over, today is the first day to our NewYear! For myself I want to do so many things that i dont know where to start, as a family we have alot going on this year. So with that said Im not sure how much I will be on here. I hope to all of you who read are off to a great start for this 2012 year and May God be with you always♥ God Bless